[Akira blinks and looks over when he feels the apprehension. His eyebrows raise up, and he immediately gets up from his seat at the library where he was reading a spellbook.]
Apollo—
[And then the distance is closed and he pulls him into a hug. He takes a deep breath, his own arms not hesitating to come up and wrap around the god in reciprocation. He says nothing for a moment, just pressing his face into the blond's shoulder and relishing the contact.]
The words leave Akira absolutely breathless. He lets that soak in fully for a couple moments, and then shifts to hug Apollon again— tightly, this time.
There's no words— Akira... actually can't find them right now. He can't even begin to express how grateful he feels. How much adoration and compassion he feels. How much this means to him.
He'd been so ready to tone down everything about his approach. To be even allowed this much...
He just clings outright for a good, solid while, before finally pulling back and smiling at Apollon. The relief and gratitude in his expression is palpable.]
[ He doesn't force a smile this time, and the twist of fear and uncertainty and self-directed doubt are heavily lingering all around him. There's a shaky breath as he leans into the hug, letting himself hold on just as tightly.
When he sees the relieved look and the appreciation and that smile, his expression does soften. There are a lot of warm feelings that surface within all the unpleasant ones. A lot of fondness and maybe something that gives away just how much he really does like Akira. ]
... I'll try to fight it less.
[ Referring to how he was when Akira helped him sleep. ]
[... oh. Those feelings... definitely have a fluttery feeling arising in Akira, though some part of him tries to tamp down on it, an internal scolding on how he told himself he was going to go slowly, this time.
His gaze softens with understanding.]
You're already giving me so much. [His hands slide down the god's arms and stop at his hands, giving them a small squeeze.] It's okay if you end up fighting. It's what you're used to, right? Don't worry; I'm patient.
[He lets go of one hand to close the spellbook and tuck it under his arm. With the other hand, there's a light tug of Apollon's arm. Should he allow it, Akira will lead him to his room once again.]
[ Oh... he releases an unsteady breath and nods. ]
I know you are. That's something I like most about you...
[ He pauses once they're out of the library, his hand gently squeezing Akira's to let him know he's stopping. Then he leans to rest his forehead against the side of the human's head as he explains. ]
Nico Nico wants to be there...
[ And that's who he'll be looking for once he's said that. ]
[ Nico is standing outside the library, arms crossed over his chest with his eyes closed as he waits for the pair to come back. When they exit, he looks up at them both and gives them a soft smile.
He's partially remembering the night he stood outside the library to give Mira and Era some space before her "death". Hopefully, this one doesn't end so sadly.
After a moment he moves to Apollon's other side, taking his hand. ]
For support, for both of you. [ And protection too. ]
[Akira obediently stops when asked, his heart doing a little thing again at Apollon leaning against him. He gently leans back, then looks to Nico and smiles— relieved, happy, and grateful. And damn if that soft smile doesn't make his heart do a thing, too...
Once Nico has taken up his spot and they're settled, he nods, and resumes the walk back to his room.
[ He might be giving Akira the hint of a knowing look. He gets it, believe him. But also... oh. Now he's holding two hands. There's the hint of a blush over that, and something very much like doubting he deserves that. Not that it stops him from walking.
That question gets a soft blink... and then something almost like a pout. A lot of conflict rests within. ]
Nico's stubborn and impossible to hide from. He always found me.
[ When Apollon blushes, he looks at the blond first then gives a knowing smirk to Akira after. He's amused and there's clear intent that he enjoys seeing the god blush like this. Nico goes along for the walk easily enough, already figuring that they're heading for someone's room.
A soft laugh at the pout and words, bumping his shoulder against Apollon's. ]
I'm sure it was terrible, having me share my music with you.
[The knowing look from Apollon has him just smiling innocently in response. He briefly holds a blink when Nico gives that knowing smile, then gives a nod of approval.]
Yup, Nico and I are pretty much matched for stubbornness. [He sounds rather proud of that, too.]
What songs did you guys listen to? And what was your favorite, Apollon?
[Ah... Apollon's reactions to being teased are always so cute. A soft chuckle escapes Akira. He watches as Nico's hand is kissed— but somehow doesn't expect the kiss to his cheek?
His eyes widen a little and his cheeks flush, and then there's a slight puff as he squeezes his hand.]
Glad you appreciate it since it's one of my defining features.
[He nods to confirm what Nico says about sharing music.] So all of them, then?
[And then a small laugh at the last part.] Fair enough, I guess that would make it pretty hard to pick.
He smiles, though it doesn't entirely reach his eyes toward the end. After looking down for a moment, he nods his head. ]
Some songs out there can be pretty terrible, but my list of favorites is super long... [ lightly squeezing Nico's hand while looking at Akira ] All of the songs he shared are part of it.
[ Looking and sounding and feeling serious about that. ]
Considering there are over ninety-seven million songs out there, just of what's in the Gracenote database, I had a lot to pick through. Many to choose from. [ a wink ] Over a hundred is much easier... and from somebody I like.
[ He laughs softly at Akira's words... ]
He does.
[ Ah. Once inside the room, there's a dim spike of anxiety. But the continued conversation has a tiny smile surfacing. ]
... Hypnagogic Pop.
[ But he's partially joking, it would seem. After some consideration, he hums. ]
Hmm... I guess I could give some range...? I liked a lot of Cesare Andrea Bixio's music, Kyu Sakamoto, Teresa Teng, and... [ tiny grin ] Mikis Theodorakis.
There's seriously that many songs? [ Nico's blown away by that number. ] I don't even remember picking these songs out, but I can see why Ren added them to my iPod for me.
[ He doesn't doubt that his boyfriend introduced him to a variety of music throughout the years, Nico just can't remember all of them.
Eyebrows raise at those words. ]
Hypnawhat pop? Is that actually a thing?
[ It sounds weird and Apollon is slightly joking so maybe it's not. ]
So... Italian, Japanese... [ A hesitant pause here. ] Chinese and Greek?
[ Apparently, just going to pretend he doesn't know exactly who Akira's talking about here, smh. Then there's a blink at the part about what that genre sounds like.
Then a laugh. ]
I think being high means you could listen to almost anything and still enjoy it. Have fun with any music. [ something that almost edges towards a smirk ] Its derivative form is called Vaporwave and it's also known as Chillwave and glo-fi.
[ Which absolutely doesn't help, he doesn't think.
Once he's sitting on the bed, he nods at Nico. There are still signs of nervousness, but at least this conversation is helping. ]
But it explores elements of cultural memory and nostalgia. It uses some technology of the past, aiming for the sounds that were used during the nineteen-eighties. Some are very enjoyable to listen to, while others are...
[ Listen, if the god of music is cringing over some songs...
There's a smile as Nico lists off the languages. ]
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Date: 2019-12-01 05:23 am (UTC)Apollo—
[And then the distance is closed and he pulls him into a hug. He takes a deep breath, his own arms not hesitating to come up and wrap around the god in reciprocation. He says nothing for a moment, just pressing his face into the blond's shoulder and relishing the contact.]
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Date: 2019-12-01 05:32 am (UTC)A shaky breath escapes. ]
Even after how much trouble I am, you still want to help...? Still want to help me find what I don't think I deserve?
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Date: 2019-12-01 05:41 am (UTC)He hums softly.]
Yeah. I'm stubborn like that.
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Date: 2019-12-01 05:50 am (UTC)... Then...
[ But a swell of fear and anger and doubt hits. He tightly closes his eyes. ]
No Heart Mend... but I'll- accept anything else you can do. For you and Nico. For the two of you.
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Date: 2019-12-01 06:03 am (UTC)The words leave Akira absolutely breathless. He lets that soak in fully for a couple moments, and then shifts to hug Apollon again— tightly, this time.
There's no words— Akira... actually can't find them right now. He can't even begin to express how grateful he feels. How much adoration and compassion he feels. How much this means to him.
He'd been so ready to tone down everything about his approach. To be even allowed this much...
He just clings outright for a good, solid while, before finally pulling back and smiling at Apollon. The relief and gratitude in his expression is palpable.]
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Date: 2019-12-01 06:13 am (UTC)When he sees the relieved look and the appreciation and that smile, his expression does soften. There are a lot of warm feelings that surface within all the unpleasant ones. A lot of fondness and maybe something that gives away just how much he really does like Akira. ]
... I'll try to fight it less.
[ Referring to how he was when Akira helped him sleep. ]
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Date: 2019-12-01 06:33 am (UTC)His gaze softens with understanding.]
You're already giving me so much. [His hands slide down the god's arms and stop at his hands, giving them a small squeeze.] It's okay if you end up fighting. It's what you're used to, right? Don't worry; I'm patient.
[He lets go of one hand to close the spellbook and tuck it under his arm. With the other hand, there's a light tug of Apollon's arm. Should he allow it, Akira will lead him to his room once again.]
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Date: 2019-12-01 07:02 am (UTC)I know you are. That's something I like most about you...
[ He pauses once they're out of the library, his hand gently squeezing Akira's to let him know he's stopping. Then he leans to rest his forehead against the side of the human's head as he explains. ]
Nico Nico wants to be there...
[ And that's who he'll be looking for once he's said that. ]
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Date: 2019-12-01 07:16 am (UTC)He's partially remembering the night he stood outside the library to give Mira and Era some space before her "death". Hopefully, this one doesn't end so sadly.
After a moment he moves to Apollon's other side, taking his hand. ]
For support, for both of you. [ And protection too. ]
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Date: 2019-12-01 05:11 pm (UTC)Once Nico has taken up his spot and they're settled, he nods, and resumes the walk back to his room.
There's a playful lilt to his voice:]
So, you two been having fun together?
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Date: 2019-12-01 07:20 pm (UTC)That question gets a soft blink... and then something almost like a pout. A lot of conflict rests within. ]
Nico's stubborn and impossible to hide from. He always found me.
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Date: 2019-12-03 01:47 am (UTC)A soft laugh at the pout and words, bumping his shoulder against Apollon's. ]
I'm sure it was terrible, having me share my music with you.
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Date: 2019-12-03 08:18 pm (UTC)Yup, Nico and I are pretty much matched for stubbornness. [He sounds rather proud of that, too.]
What songs did you guys listen to? And what was your favorite, Apollon?
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Date: 2019-12-06 05:32 am (UTC)He sighs, only to blink at Nico's words. ]
Oh, I didn't mean it like...
[ Stop teasing him, gosh!!! But then he's going to lift Nico's hand to his lips, kissing it. ]
There was nothing terrible about it. Nothing I didn't appreciate.
[ Akira gets a kiss to the cheek. ]
You are. I have to admit I'm impressed. An impressive amount of stubbornness.
[ He looks at Nico. He manages a tiny grin. ]
Maybe Nico Nico can share the music with Kira Kira next?
[ But there's a bit of a pout getting sent to Akira next. ]
Asking me to pick a favorite song? A little unfair...
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Date: 2019-12-06 07:02 am (UTC)A light laugh as he squeezes Apollon's hand. ]
Glad to hear that. I'd feel bad if you didn't like my visits.
[ Not that he sounds or feels like that would have upset him that badly. ]
You ended up with double the stubbornness, Apollon.
[ Ah, as for that. ]
I have already shared it with him. We could talk over the phones and it wasn't great but, I would play music for us both.
[ To fill the silence when their houses were empty. ]
Apollon is the god of music too, he probably has a bunch of favorites from throughout history.
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Date: 2019-12-06 04:50 pm (UTC)His eyes widen a little and his cheeks flush, and then there's a slight puff as he squeezes his hand.]
Glad you appreciate it since it's one of my defining features.
[He nods to confirm what Nico says about sharing music.] So all of them, then?
[And then a small laugh at the last part.] Fair enough, I guess that would make it pretty hard to pick.
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Date: 2019-12-07 08:49 pm (UTC)He smiles, though it doesn't entirely reach his eyes toward the end. After looking down for a moment, he nods his head. ]
Some songs out there can be pretty terrible, but my list of favorites is super long... [ lightly squeezing Nico's hand while looking at Akira ] All of the songs he shared are part of it.
[ Looking and sounding and feeling serious about that. ]
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Date: 2019-12-09 12:17 am (UTC)I bet. Maybe you can share some of it with us later. [ Only seems fair at this point. ] That's over a hundred songs.
[ All of them are songs Nico likes, picked out for him by his boyfriend. ]
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Date: 2019-12-09 12:21 am (UTC)[They're nearing Akira's room now, and he opens the door to it to let them in.]
I guess asking for a favorite genre would be a pretty tall order too.
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Date: 2019-12-10 09:41 am (UTC)[ He laughs softly at Akira's words... ]
He does.
[ Ah. Once inside the room, there's a dim spike of anxiety. But the continued conversation has a tiny smile surfacing. ]
... Hypnagogic Pop.
[ But he's partially joking, it would seem. After some consideration, he hums. ]
Hmm... I guess I could give some range...? I liked a lot of Cesare Andrea Bixio's music, Kyu Sakamoto, Teresa Teng, and... [ tiny grin ] Mikis Theodorakis.
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Date: 2019-12-10 10:52 am (UTC)[ He doesn't doubt that his boyfriend introduced him to a variety of music throughout the years, Nico just can't remember all of them.
Eyebrows raise at those words. ]
Hypnawhat pop? Is that actually a thing?
[ It sounds weird and Apollon is slightly joking so maybe it's not. ]
So... Italian, Japanese... [ A hesitant pause here. ] Chinese and Greek?
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Date: 2019-12-11 09:43 pm (UTC)[Apollon and Nico really are cute, and he's glad the latter has felt the need to keep pestering the god...
When they're in the room and he feels the anxiety, he gives the hand a gentle squeeze as he leads them to the bed.]
Kind of sounds like something you'd listen to if you're high. Or maybe it was made by someone while they were high.
[He looks to Nico.]
I've never heard of it either, but I don't question the limits of humanity's creativity.
Especially while on drugs.
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Date: 2019-12-12 09:58 pm (UTC)He is~
[ Apparently, just going to pretend he doesn't know exactly who Akira's talking about here, smh. Then there's a blink at the part about what that genre sounds like.
Then a laugh. ]
I think being high means you could listen to almost anything and still enjoy it. Have fun with any music. [ something that almost edges towards a smirk ] Its derivative form is called Vaporwave and it's also known as Chillwave and glo-fi.
[ Which absolutely doesn't help, he doesn't think.
Once he's sitting on the bed, he nods at Nico. There are still signs of nervousness, but at least this conversation is helping. ]
But it explores elements of cultural memory and nostalgia. It uses some technology of the past, aiming for the sounds that were used during the nineteen-eighties. Some are very enjoyable to listen to, while others are...
[ Listen, if the god of music is cringing over some songs...
There's a smile as Nico lists off the languages. ]
Correct! That's all of them.
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Date: 2019-12-15 05:12 am (UTC)[ Huffing indignantly but there's no real heat behind it.
He shakes his head at Akira's description. ]
You make it sound like you're an expert about listening and making music while high on drugs, Akira.
[ Poking the other male's side.
Frowning at Apollon's next words. ] You say that like I know what any of those are.
[ So nope, no help at all.
Nico sits next to the god on the bed, not letting go of his hand. The continued talk of music just... confuses him. ]
I'll have to take your word for it, Apollon.
[ He looks at both of them now and hums quietly. ]
Since I've shared my favorites with the two of you, I think it's only fair if you do the same in return.
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Date: 2019-12-15 10:59 pm (UTC)[Don't you play sly with him, Apollon!!
And then he looks at Nico and says, straight-faced:]
Would you think less of me if I was?
[He looks curiously at Apollon as he explains, then gives a small laugh at the cringe, before he nods to Nico.]
Sure. Maybe tomorrow or something.
[And then he's looking to Apollon, gaze softening.]
Are you ready?
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