[ There's just a wink to Nico at the first comment.
... As for the persistence from Akira and the comfort from Nico, both of those things serve as reassurance; the walls are at least getting chipped away at.
One feeling stands out above the rest: self-loathing. It's not as strong as Akira probably remembers it being, early on, but it's still there. That and the guilt are at the top of the list, really, with some general sadness.
Buried the deepest are insecurity and loneliness - not in a way that implies they're not the strongest feelings he has, but in a way that suggests they've been getting ignored the longest. Even now, he's unconsciously working to keep them there. ]
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Date: 2019-12-23 06:12 am (UTC)... As for the persistence from Akira and the comfort from Nico, both of those things serve as reassurance; the walls are at least getting chipped away at.
One feeling stands out above the rest: self-loathing. It's not as strong as Akira probably remembers it being, early on, but it's still there. That and the guilt are at the top of the list, really, with some general sadness.
Buried the deepest are insecurity and loneliness - not in a way that implies they're not the strongest feelings he has, but in a way that suggests they've been getting ignored the longest. Even now, he's unconsciously working to keep them there. ]